I for some reason thought I already blogged about this but I guess I didn’t. So, I guess I can start from the beginning. When I was a child in elementary school, in recess I mostly played alone on the swings or what not and used to buy pencils and such in the little store that they had from outside. When I was in 5th grade I remember making myself little paper dolls that sat in my desk and were my friends. I think one time I had a sleep over in elementary but nothing came of it.
When I started middle school I had a person who I thought was my BEST friend embarrass me and tell the whole class and the guy I liked. I also remember this other girl in my neighborhood who used to make me go outside and play. I know that sounds crazy but its true. In high school, I was working and such and my friends were chasing guys and being cool. I hung out to be cool and just felt so out of place, I would rather be home on the computer lol! So I quit going out and just worked at Wendys after school and on the weekends. When my friends would ask for me to go out I would tell my mom to tell them I cant go out for some stupid reason.
I was also teased in school, all through elementary and middle school. I was an outcast in high school. I didnt do drugs or anything, I just hung out with those that no one else liked. I liked being different. I used to wear flannel and just have long thin hair that just brush and go. I still do except the flannel part lol! I miss wearing flannel though.
My brother though growing up, was the social butterfly. Always gone out with friends and such and always had a girlfriend. I had my first boyfriend who also became my husband when I worked at Wendys. Wendys will always hold a special place in my heart to me. We got married when I turned 18.
After my separation and coming back to United States, I went to Job Corps and my mother took care of my 2 month old daughter. I did what I was supposed to do when I got there, I brushed up on my administration and computer skills and got my drivers license. I also became Bay Leader my first two months in the program and Top 6 two months before I was done with the program. I also applied for government and lost as Secretary. I was disappointed but I know why I did not win. Not because the other girl was better, but because she socialized and hung out with all the people in all the dorms. See, when I was there my off time was spent at the gym, reading or walking. I also stayed inside in the dorm eating my Chicken Top Ramen and watching TV. It pissed me off to lose for Secretary because all I did was work and not fuss with stupid drama bullshit. But I did learn my lesson about politics. You need to be social and with the people.
Basically all my life, I have been a homebody. I had 2 serious relationships in my life. Both of the people I met at work. I havent ever really had casual sex neither. I dont think there is anyone whom I can call a true best friend. That term I do not use loosely. I HAVE made a few good friends online. Because we interact daily talking about things we have in common. I have had the same online friends for a few years too. From WAHM to Facebook. (I dont think we really met up on MySpace?) These people I feel like are my friends and we have something in common. I have some I can tell personal and business things with and I dont need to go out and do the club scene. I prefer it that way.
I have tried the club scene and did not like neither. I dont like having crowds of friends like you see on such shows as Friends or what you might have or what I might read or see on TV. That just aint me. I live in my own little world and I like it there. 🙂 I think my daughter is turning out the same way.
I do like hanging out with my daughter, animals, parents and siblings. To me thats all the social interaction I need. Or if I am handling my business offline. To me that is fun socializing, like a business luncheon from the Chamber of Commerce or a Benefit. That I love, those are the people I want to be with offline. I love Networking. That is one of the reasons why I am a Network Marketer. 😉
Anyway, I hope reading this post you understand me better 🙂